I've been with my bf for almost 3 years now, I love him more than anything and I wanna be with him but I'm still freaking out and I'm really worried. I found out yesterday that I'm pregnant and I told him. The only thing is (sorry if this bothers anyone) but I don't feel excited about it at all and I really don't want a baby right now. I'm almost 25 and I've been through alot for someone my age and I'm just starting to get my life back and what I want out of it. My entire life since I was a young kid (past 20 years) I've been battling depression and I feel like I'm starting to get on the right track to doing things so I can finally be a happier person. If I was going to go ahead and decided to have this baby, I just don't know or think I would be happy living that life. My bf says I'm just being negative about it and is trying to get me to see more of a positive side of it but I just don't feel that way. I don't know what to do, I don't know whats going to happen but I'm afraid its going to ruin my relationship or that I'm going to lose him because of how I feel or that fact that I feel that I'm in no place to have a baby right now. Right now getting my life back and becoming happy with my life is soo important to me, if I went ahead and had this baby I'm worried or feel like it would be holding me back or slowing me down from it because I just don't know if I would be happy having a baby. Please respond, I really wanna talk to someone other than my bf or get advice. I should be happy and scared at the same time but I'm scared and not happy about it.

Rebecca,

Thanks for posting. This is actually a REALLY big deal and I'm glad that you reached out for some advice. I am not sure this is the right place to seek expert help on this subject, though. There is this great website called The Pregnancy Helpline http://www.pregnancy-helpline.net/ and they have trained counselors who will talk you through. It is your body and I believe you have the right to do what you decide, however, make sure you explore every option before you make any decisions. You have some time, so talk it through with anyone who has knowledge on the subject who will listen. Definitely keep your boyfriend in on the conversation as well. Best of luck to you!

MJ