I don't even know where to begin. I have so many intense feelings inside. I'm so tired of letting my ex get the best of me. Okay..well we have been broken up for a year now and he randomly showed up to my house one night. We had broken up because I started getting restless and I wanted to go out more. He's the one that broke up with me though. I was devastated. Okay well we hardly had any contact for a year so I was pretty taken back when he showed up. He said that he had just gotten out of a retreat and he just wanred to see how I was doing. We spoke for a while and then he left. I seriously thought that I wasn't going to talk to him for a long time after that but he called me the very next morning to join him to watch a movie. I went and stupid me slept with him.Okay well it's been about three months now and we still see eachother like 2 times or 3 times a week. I'm being such an idiot. He tells me that he has all these feelings for me but he doesnt know how to deal with them and i'm just there like an idiot. He's a real nice guy but he;s still a GUY.  I may be in denial that we aren't getting back together and he's just using me for comfort. I just need to get this off my chect. i feel so anxious all the time. I need to move on but it seems so impossible at the moment. This is really starting to piss me off. I mae things way too easy for him. Where are my balls!? I know he cares about me..just not the way i care about him. Ugh I just feel dumnb. I can't even think straight right now. I need help!