this has been one of those 'nod-off-and-dream-of-my-ex' kind of days. i hate those. because somehow in my dreams i always pick the good things about him, out of everything else to remember, and then w

is my ex's birthday. it's a small gift from God to be in a place where you forget the birthday of the person whom you used to give everything to. it's weird and sad and wonderful all at the same time.

was pretty good. im in a weird place right now. im doing the whole "feeling totally normal" thing, only to break down later? that's what normally happens (chris and i have broken up and gotten back t