I guess i could realize that it's really over but i dont wanna except it.  just the other night you told me that you had a date with her that day and it really hurt me, i cried that night. i wish you didnt tell me that you shouldn't have said anything. knowing who she is/was to me how could you??? not only i was jealous of her but i was furious with you, because i started to feel our friendship was getting stronger before you told me that. now that i know what measures you are willing to take to hurt me im starting to think is our friendship worth it, worth saving. i was betrayed by her and cheated and lied to by you. i dont know why you do this to me or maybe im doing it myself but whatever the reason i hate the way i feel i hate that i love you.....so much. Where do i go from here? all i know is either way i go i'll miss you along the way.