well girls i didnt meet him....and that's that. why is that is because im thinking of letting him go for good.  I cant take it anymore dammit!!!! it's time to move on. And during that proccess i'll keep you updated,and i wanna say thank you to those who gave me advice you know who are. I 'll miss him along the way of course he was my first love my first everything..ill love him always and forever. But now i need to focus on me im in a good college and im doing great and im not going to ruin it over some guy who wants me to be his second girlfriend, friend with benefits, and sloppy seconds or whatever it is. IM NOT!!! Today is christmas i have spoke to him but only for a while but after today i won't speak to him ever again. im putting my texts on block so i wont get any msgs from him and he wont get any msgs from me. I might say happy birthday to him in Febuary cause that's when his b-day is (by e-mail). Doing this i know he's going to say bye first by saying we dont talk much anyways so...blah blah. well i agree reason being is because i didnt talk to him. This time im gonna let go either by will power or by force when he says bye first...it's gonna happen. He wont care, he told me before that he doesnt care if we never talk again and i know he wont miss me either because he once said that he chose the right girl aka that someone who's/once was close to me. He's a bunch of bullsh** !!!! chose the right girl then why in hell is he wanting me..it's because he's selfish!!!! and can't make a f**king choice. well im leaving never talking to him again, if he makes his choice of wanting me he knows my number... but even then it'd still be too late im NOT taking him back he put me through too much sh** .  But i know in my heart he'll stay with her cuz she's all he has. And she's clueless she's not the only girl in his life or in his phone.. best of luck to her. and him well i hope someday he'll realize his AWFUL AND HURTFUL ways and change it. Sadly i wont be the one to see that change and/or the one to love it. well this is goodbye my once lover J******  MWAH!!

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