I wanna let you all to know that im with someone new that makes me happier than ever, i never thought i could be happy again but here i am with boyfriend #3 AMAZZZZZZZING!!!! he is truly awesome. he tells me he loves me all the time and basically does everything right. the only problem is...me i cant or wont believe he loves me i guess im just scared to believe him because if i do then one day he'll breakup with me and then ill look like an ass and foolish for actually believing a lie. id rather not believe him then be made a fool of..would you agree???? ive been told to just be happy and enjoy the relationship if ends then its better to have loved than not loved at all...... hmm i want to enjoy it but im afraid to settle cuz something bad happens all the time when i do. i do love him more than he claims he loves me, loving too much has got me in trouble in the past my last two boyfriends ended things one was because his feelings has changed and he basically said that he never really loved me the same as i did and the second one just didnt love me and just wanted sex.

what makes this 3rd relationship different is the seriousness on his part i mean he even told me that he doesnt get into a relationship without the intention to spend a lifetime together with that person aka me. thats good and all but what if what if things end thats what hurts the most, it hurts the most when you feel that you are truly in love with that person, made plans to live together, a future date you always wanted, even had names for your future kids and who their gonna look like, made promises to eachother that you'll always love the other just as much as other one does, and plan to get married someday, then one day you breakup. then what do you do cry and get mad or pretend and hold it in??????

the one question us women ask ourselves is when a couple breaks up does the guy hurt as much as the girl does?

my boyfriend tells me that they do but i think its a bunch of bullshit!!!!!! guys can move on to the next..... the next day or week us women take a year off to grieve i know i did heh actually 2 years to be exact. one year each from my 2 previous relationships. damn love hurts hell is there any guy out there who will take love and relationships SERIOUSLY?????

i think this guy does [my bf] but if im wrong i dont wanna be right :(

did i say that right? hehe