I just got back from vacation a couple days ago. The vacation was great. spent the majority of the time laying on the beach and drinking cocktails with friends! I realized while on vacation that it has been almost two months since I have talked, emailed, texted my ex. The last time we talked things ended pretty bitterly. I was hoping that sometime we would be able to talk about our last conversation, maybe apologize to each other and catch up. So, I made a bad judgement call and texted him this yesterday afternoon "Hey ___, I was wondering if you would like to meet up for a coffee sometime this week?" I didn't get a response, I didn't really think that I would. I don't think he is ready to talk to me yet. I am hoping that it is just that he isn't ready and that he doesn't absolutely despise me and doesn't care about how things ended. I realize that is a possibility but it's hard for me to come to terms with the fact that someone I loved so much could turn out to be such a cold and hateful person. Anyways, although I probably should not have reached out to him I think it is a good sign that I am ok with the fact that he didn't respond. In the past I would have gotten very upset about it and probably would have sent a follow up text message. I guess the only thing that I really regret is that maybe I messaged him too soon and perhaps if I would have waited another month or two I would have gotten a response. Now that I have messaged him I can't really do it again in another month because I don't want to seem needy.