Ok so this is my first post so here it goes...I finally ended it with my ex about 2 years ago because he was controlling along with being mentally and emotionally abusive :( I kinda feel like I might have a bit of stockholm syndrom because it's hard to let it go. I guess I've been doing better but I still need some help to free myself from the pain, anger, and resentment. I am currently in a relationship with someone who I feel has become simply a crutch for dealing with my life. I love and care about him but I'm not in love with him. (I feel he lacks the mental and emotional depth I need in a relationship) Sometimes my current partner makes me feel empty and when that happens I relaps to good thoughts about my ex which is not healthy. I feel like an addict in the sence that i'm addicted to something that is bad for me. Sometimes I have the urge to use my drug (my ex), to just take one more hit to fill the empty void I feel. I miss the deep emotional conection we had. I never wanted to break up with him but he left me no choice because even though I was madly in love with him, he was destroying me peice by peice.His abusive, controling, manipulative, selfishness was poisin to our relationship. So here I am putting my heart out there in hopes to find the perspective of great wisdom.