If falling in love means being bitter, I'd rather stay single!

I was once a dreamer and a believer of fairytales. Everything changed when I saw my Huoda, a schoolmate and a dormmate of mine. He was a senior nd an old resident, while I'm one of the newbies. I met him during a drinking session one night. At first glimpse, I was sure he was the one I've been waiting for. He has the looks and attitude of my ideal guy. The one I've been dreaming and the one I've been waiting. I was made to believe that I did FALL in Love that instant. W

Just when I  thought everything is going my way, I saw him with his girl. The special person he tried to deny every time we talk. He was sick that day so her girlfriend had to come over and tend to his need...whatever needs did he have.

When I saw the two of them, I was pretty sure I wanted to vomit and be sick all day. I really felt that dooms day had come and put an end to all of my happy times. After that, I drank together with my friend for three nights. Almost all of us did have personal problems that time. I really wanted revenge, I wanted to sucker punch his face to make him feel how badly hurt I was. 

It took me a to finally get over him and lose all the feelings whenever we talked. I still communicate with him, of course, I can't avoid it since we were living in one dorm. I tried to be civil every time we see each other and we do pretend we were just another strangers learning to cope with our own mistakes.

Right now, I am dating someone, whom I know has a mutual feeling with me, but as far as bitterness is concern, I would like to keep our relationship form falling into deeper stages. I don't want to lose a good friend.