I am beginning to realize that the best thing that I did was to bring up "the conversation" with F and leave his house when he didn't give me the answer that I wanted to hear. I deserve so much more than "in between" and I'm not going to be that girl anymore. So even though F is still contacting me, I'm not initiating contact first - and I really do think that he knows that I'm not going to stand for it anymore.

Also, this whole experience made me trust my guts. I knew that something was up - that he either was losing interests, or whatever else is going on. And he just had been spending so much time with his friends and not putting me into the picture, the way that I felt I should be. Not that I have a problem with him going out with his friends or snowboarding - but I'm not going to be at your beck and call when your schedule is convenient because I have a life too.

Anyway, I'm done being exclusive with F. If he doesn't want to be with me 100%, I'm not going to wait around and put all of my eggs in one basket. So I already have 2 dates set up for next week! So we'll see how they go. They are little coffee dates, but you can always get to know a person better on those. And if nothing happens with them, that's ok. It's just helping me move past F even quicker, which is what I need.

To be honest, I am really just so proud of myself, because I know that a year or two ago I wouldn't have been this strong. When F told me he wanted something "in between" I probably would have stayed there and been, OK! Sure! And hold onto the hope that maybe if I acted better, or did everything that he wanted - he might want me. But I know that's not the case. If he doesn't want me for the person who I am - or even if he's too scared to commit - I know that there is someone out there who does want me. And who is willing to commit.