I went on another unsuccessful date tonight. And the part that I feel bad about is that it wasn't unsuccessful on his part. In fact, he thought that the date went very well - as I got a text message from him about a half an hour after I got home. But I don't know, he was nice and all, I just wasn't physically attracted to him.

To be honest, I just don't know what my problem is with guys. Like right now, I'm actually happy with my life, I know that I have qualities that would attract other people - but I'm just not feeling anyone that I've went out with recently. At all. I'm just faking through everything. And the guys that I have gone out with have been really nice guys. There's just nothing there for me.

I have been talking to this one other guy on the dating website for like over a month now, and he seems nice enough. We have a date planned for Friday. But after that, if it doesn't go well. I'm really going to take a break for a while. Or at least a few months. I'm just really sick of going on one unsuccessful date after another. I'm tired of these nice guys who I have absolutely no physical attraction to and I'm tired of the desperate, psychos that I've been attracting recently. I'm just really tired of it.

On the plus side, I'm finally over F. I don't have the urge to call or text him anymore - so at least that's a plus.