OK..It's been 3 months...and I seem to be on a pretty predictable cycle so far...OK for a few days, REALLY OK for a couple more, CONTENT for a week and then *BAM*...GUT WRENCHING, NAUSEATING, HEADACHE CAUSING PAIN!!   Nothing like sitting at your desk with your compact out trying to act like you're touching up when what you are REALLY doing is "cleaning up"...I mean really, how is it possible that one minute I'm totally fine reading my E-Mail and out of nowhere, a wave of pain comes rolling in like toilet paper?

OH! Could it be the Email I read about a great sale at The Golf Warehouse, which reminded me that golf is something we did together, which reminded me that the "replacement" used MY PINK GOLF BALLS I left behind (Uh yea...thanks "friend" for sharing that awesome detail with me), which reminded me that someone else is now living the life that used to be MINE, which reminded me that I am hurting and so on and so on....

GOOD GRIEF when am I going to get over this???  Seriously, it's like having PMS every 6-10 days, but without the cramps...NO, I take that back.. the cramps are there too, only they happen in my heart, and there's NO over the counter bottle of pills to cure them.  SO WHAT! I can buy more PINK GOLF BALLS!...RIGHT?..But how dare she??? Pink Golf Balls were my "thing"..."everyone" knew...that "I" only use Pink Golf Balls, that the ONLY Pink Golf Ball on the fairway belonged to "me". NOT ANYMORE APPARENTLY!

How petty is that? I should have been a chemist. I would invent a Break Up Relief Nasal Spray. Is it wrong to hope one of those Pink Golf Balls ricochets off of a tree and hits her in the nose? Yes? OK maybe in her knee cap...

I'm not sure if I'm hurt over losing my love, or just suffering from a damaged ego at this point..maybe a little of both. I think i'll switch to Purple Golf Balls...