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I am indeed a sucker for love. I thought it was something I can easily get away with even if I’m not right and not so wise to make decisions. Third year high school, another time of my life that I wish I never been so stupid to act on impulse and got myself branded as a traitor.

It all started in a friendly game. I will play the bridge and my close friend and her crush would definitely meet halfway. Let us call my close friend Yu and the guy involved Shi.

For starters, I never liked Shi before I entered and ruined their perfectly laid picture. Shi was a long time crush of Yu. He was one year younger. So to put, we were his sempais. Often times we would wait for him to pass by our classrooms during every class period that we have near the sophomore buildings. Whenever we saw him, I’d always say “like duh? You think he’s really that crush material huh?” and they’re like “you’ll be eating your words for sure”...and they’re right as usual.

Yu confessed to us that she would really like Shi to be his boyfriend. She said he reminded her of Harry Potter and his brown eyes stare people with both curiosity and agitated anger.

One day Shi and Yu started texting, it was perfect not until Shi started sending me messages too. At first it was Yu and Shi walking side-by-side and later it became me and Shi walking side-by-side with yu right behind us or in front. I was so shameless; I managed to betray my close friend. They did not meet halfway because I did block the way.

What was I thinking during that time? How on earth did I ruin the budding love of the two? Honestly I really don’t know. I was selfish, envious perhaps. Seeing other people’s happiness made me sick and my sanity was out of the question. I was selfishly happy for a year not until I decided to stop it. Our families were involved too and both parties favour us. What they did not know was I wasn’t the one who should be happy. My happiness caused Yu’s sorrow. She may not admit it but it is apparent she hated me and she has the right to do so. She was so honest right from the start and so I was but I waivered. I broke her trust and even if how hard I try, it will never be the same.

She’s intelligent, guessing by actions she knew I was doing her favours so that I can once again be close to her. So that whatever gap we had would be rebuilt. She was no fool, and I never wanted to fool her. I regret. I regret. I regret. (I said it thrice, so I mean it)

After a year, Yu and Shi did finally end up having a relationship but it did not last. See, despite the fact that I stole Shi from her and she said it was alright with her, her feelings betrayed her actions. She was still in love with him that’s why she said yes to him. And Shi? I don’t know what’s on his mind but one thing’s for sure; he also feels the same way towards Yu.

If people are meant to be together, they will meet halfway regardless of a blockage. Yu and Shi remained good friends. And Yu and I are starting all over again. We can now touch the issue of the past with less sensitivity...as if what I stole from her was just a pair of shoes. A pair of shoes that if I hadn't returned would surely cause both us tears and cold-war for a lifetime.

Choosing a lover over a friend will be something I’ll never do again. I learned my mistake the hard way and I don’t have any intention repeating it...or if ever it happens again I’m gonna make sure not with my close friends for they are the people I cherish the most. I can’t afford to lose one of them again. I only have eight of them, and what will happen to me if all of the m would be gone? Time does not heal at all. It just lessens the degree of pain and anger that we’re feeling but it never erases something for our convenience.