Little man and I went and hung out with W yesterday. We went to the lake and then we hung out with some of W's friends for a while. (His friends didn't treat me any different, and they didn't seem surprised that I was there, and I actually made an effort to be friendly towards them and join in on activities, and I did have fun. I could tell that W was surprised because I usually don't put a lot of effort into talking to his friends.) After that we went and watched fireworks with some more of his friends. Then W took little man and I back home. He put little man to bed and then he said he was leaving... but instead of leaving he wandered around the house looking at all the empty spots where his things used to be. I asked him what he was looking for and he said nothing. So I went to the bathroom and then walked into my room and he grabbed me, picked up and hugged me and then he asked if we could try again. He said that he knows we won't fail this time and he knows he can do better. I told him that I know I can do better too. He told me that all he did for the first week was sit around and get drunk and cry and he didn't know why. He said that he realized that he thought he was unhappy with me, but he didn't know what unhappiness was until he left.

So we talked for a while about the things that each of us want and I asked him if he was only wanting to be with me because of little man, and he said no. I let him stay over and watch a movie and then we fell asleep. He is still here right now... I don't know how long it will last, but now I'm going to see where things go. I love him.... but I know that I can make it without him. So I'm going to be more independent and take chances and not be so resistant to things in my comfort zone. I'm not going to nag him and be ill when things don't go my way because I have learned that life is full of ups and downs, and things NEVER go as planned.

To everyone... Your breakup story might not end like mine, but just remember that things always work out the way they are supposed to. I've been told, "If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it's yours. If it doesn't, then it never was." Sometimes we have to go through hard times to get to the good times. Stay positive and don't dwell on the negative. There is a reason that some relationships don't work and as hard as that is to accept... well you have to accept it. It makes you a better person and you come out stronger in the end.