I don't know if there is something wrong with me, but I kind of miss the whole game-playing. The whole "does he really like me" bullshit that I usually put up with. The being ignored, the drama, that goes with someone who doesn't really care about you. Maybe I'm just really fucked up from all of my previous relationships.

V is just so nice. It's like I can't do anything wrong. It's obvious that he likes me. And he's just one of those overall nice guys. He picks me up, he pays for me, he holds the doors open for me, he introduces to me to his friends, he doesn't ignore me, he remembers the little things, he actually wants to meet my parent, he wants to hang out with my friends, etc. So I'm wondering why I miss all of the drama that comes with being ignored and treated like shit.

It's like in every other relationship, I was the fixer. I was the one who took care of the guy. Even with F. I took care of him when he was drunk, I always drove to his house, it was me making the effort all the time. So now it's just weird that I'm not the one making the effort. Or that I don't have to make any effort at all. That he just likes me for who I am. 'm not pretending to be anyone else around him.

I guess I just need to get used to being the one who is taken care of. Because I really don't want to fuck things up because of my past issues.