I heard my parents talking about me today and my dating habits and it really made me sad. It kind of hit home to me that I just can't seem to find someone decent.

The conversation pretty much went like this:
Dad: What does she think she's doing? Going on this dating website.
Mom: Well, she wants to find someone, a constant. Someone who's going to be there for her.
Dad: Well this isn't the way to do it.
Mom: Well the bars aren't either...
Dad: That's where we met.
Mom: Well, things have changed. It's not so easy...

And the whole thing kind of goes on from there. I don't know the parts that I missed, but I pretty much got the whole gist of the conversation from that and it really made me upset and I'm tearing up a little bit right now just thinking about it.

I've really tried to stay positive during this whole thing. I've tried to look at the bright side, which took a lot especially after the whole fiasco with F (which I still miss btw and it really takes all thats in me not to text him). But it just looks so bleak. I can't seem to find anyone in these past couple of years that is worthwhile and has stuck - and it really just sucks. I don't even know where to look or what to do to meet people. Because the bar scene sucks, there's rarely any good people there, the online scene is often filled with freaks and weirdos - and I just don't know anymore.