I've been sitting for almost an hour now. Been wondering what to do next after I get tired of surfing the internet. Over and over, whenever I keep silent I remember him...despite the fact that we do not talk that much now, he's the one on my mind.

Is it because I thought he was the one for me?but look..i met my soulmate. The one I think who is far way better than him. However evrytime I day dream, all the things that I would love to do involves my memory of him and it turn out that all I want is REVENGE.

However, how can this be possible when I knew all a long that he doesn't even care about me...that he doesn't even  give a damn about what I do, whom I talk with.

i'm still moving on after what happened to me last year. It was a shocked to me. Being caught off guard is not a nice feeling at all.

Although I've told my friends that I'm finally over him, which is true and I can feel it, there's something in me that keeps on telling me that the fight is not yet over. I'm still inlove with him..in love with his being...as I've said a hundred times before, I don't love him as someone I want too keep forever. I'm just inlove with him.

How is that possible or is it really possible that I love him but I reall y don't?