I am having a really hard time bringing up the whole "relationship" conversation with F. And part of me wonders if it's even necessary to bring it up - or if I should just let things progress naturally and stop stressing about everything. I'm not an assertive person, at all (hard to believe since I am a teacher). So I really don't like conflict, I don't like to stir the pot, or cause trouble. So it's really hard for me to bring it up, because I'm scared and I don't want to cause any friction or be demanding. I know that F isn't seeing anyone else - or has any intentions of seeing anyone else. He made that more than clear. So I'm wondering if right now if that's enough.

Also, in my last two relationships we jumped into being official less than a month into the relationship and the whole relationship lasted only about 3 months. I'm starting to realize that having the title really doesn't change anything. Having the title with my last two boyfriends didn't change anything, it didn't make us stay together longer, and it certainly didn't make me like them any better. Things with F and I are going really well - and we are still good after 3 months.

My relationship with F is also different from the relationships that I've had with guys when I didn't have the title. Like the ones where you are just hooking up with or having fun with - and they don't want anything serious. Because they never made it clear to me, like F does, that they aren't seeing anyone else. They never had me meet their parents or meet their friends. And they never really initiated going out - unless they just wanted to have sex or something. So, I can tell that there's a difference there because F initiates conversations with me, I met most of his friends, and I have a relationship with his parents. We don't just hook-up, we do other things. On normal weeks we see each other 3-4 times a week, so it's not like it's a casual thing, at all.

I think that I just need to stop with all of my insecurities and just realize that every relationship is different. In another 2 months if F doesn't say anything - then my mind will probably change on the whole thing and I'll let him know that we've been dating for 5 months and that I want the title. But right now I'm really happy with everything - and I don't want to fix something that isn't broken.