Im taking it day by day really thought it's not easy it never is or has been, but i gotta do what i gotta do. I lost track of time i just know its been a long time since the choice i made to let go, im starting to realize it's the right choice but when at times when im really down i ask myself did i make the right choice and the urge to text/call him is so high but i dont because in the end i'll look like a fool.

Im trying really hard to bite my tongue and not say a word to him or break down in tears in front of my family and friends, my mom thinks it's stupid to hurt after a breakup me i don't think to she says that cause one she's different two she has someone that loves her no matter what. Everyone is different some ppl hurt and some don't..i do and it shows badly hiding it is hard to do my mom sees it and rolls her eyes, my friends well they just tell me the same things and console me the best way they can and i appreciate it a lot i just wish i can tell myself the same and believe it and most of all feel it!!!!!!!! 

well that's all for now :/