Last summer a co-intern of mine in a station introduced her friend to me...For some unknown reasons, she wanted her guy friend to be my somewhat textmate. Out of courtesy, I of course showed some modesty and accepted the proposed friendship even if I seldom find comfort from strangers..or at least with the people I hardly know. 

Months passed and I've been comfortable with him. He's smart, funny and undeniable handsome. I was not putting any malice out of newly formed camaraderie not until he asked me last month...the question I wished he did not formulate. 

He told me he like me. I was surprised because we knew each other for just a couple of months. How can he possibly feel something for me if in the first place, we seldom talk face-to-face. We rarely go out and we live in two different worlds. 

I was speechless at first...and I told him that it would be better if we remain as friends..but when he asked me if he has the chance of ever winning my heart...I told him yes! Yes for the fact that I may  fall for him in the future...but the time is just isn't right.

In other words, He's Mr. Right...but not right now.

Okay..here's the problem now. My cellphone was broken. I did not have his number. Otherwise, he texted me a one or two and got his number registered to be unknown. I just assumed it was him anyway...I went to send him an email asking his number and explaining that my phone's broke. 

Apparently surprising, he wouldn't give me his number. Just a minute ago I received his reply telling me that he would never again dare to text me. But again, as I was writing this down, he texted me using a different number telling me that he would rather keep silent forever than to be closed to me again. 

What the hell does that mean?Hey, I've been acting the same. I did not bother change my ways on dealing with him.I acted just fine to show no malice to what ever kindness I receive from him...And here he is cutting off our friendship. It isn't right I guess and if there would be someone who'll be doing that act..it would be me... Its just so ironic that I never get to have any sustainable relationship with guys may it be intimate or not.