My sister text me this afternoon and told me that W text her. She said that he was trying to get ahold of me. I didn't want him to have my phone number, but I told her to just give it to him. He text me and told me that his phone got shut off and he didn't know. He said that he thought I was being by a bitch by not emailing him but then he realized that his phone was off. So anyways, he came and got little man.

I am not the kind of person who sits around feeling yucky after a break up. I put make up on and make myself feel pretty! So, when he showed up and walked into my house I was wearing a mini skirt and heels :) Apparently that made him assume that I was seeing someone. He asked if my new boyfriend bought me a phone. I told him I wasn't dating anyone, and he said, "Thats not what I've heard." He is grasping at straws, because I have not talked to ANYONE. He takes little man, and I go to my friends house. Not even 5 minutes later he texts me and says, "I do not understand why you do the things while I am gone that you didn't do while I was there that would have made things great." I said, "What are you talking about?" and he replied, "Making the house look good and looking sexy." I said, "Well I was dating a guy that was never around and who didn't pick up after himself so what would have been the point?" To make a long story short, he told me that he is not happy, and that he lied when he said he wasn't in love with me anymore. He said that we should work on being friends so that we can try again. I told him that I really have no interest in being friends, and he got ill with me. So I am assuming that he saw me today and realized what he lost. I knew it would happen. I'm a little discombobulated right now and I am annoyed. I still love him, but I am tired of this never ending cycle. I don't know what to do.

He text a little bit ago and asked if I was taking little man to see fireworks and I said I didn't know yet. And he said if I wasn't then he would bring some and shoot them off. I'm afraid that I am going to get pulled in yet again. I guaruntee if he comes over here it will lead to sex and I just don't know if I can say no.

I guess I will do my best to keep my legs closed and to stand my ground.