I deleted all of the text messages that I "locked" from F because I thought that they were cute, and then I deleted his number from my phone. I don't need that temptation anymore, and I certainly know that he doesn't feel about me the way that I felt about him. I know that he doesn't care as much and I don't need to hold onto the hope that maybe something will smack him in the head and he'll realize, because that's like a 1% possibility. So I'm done. Plus one of his friends sent me a message on that dating site asking me why I was on it, oops. lol My mom was like "Whatever, he (F) left you no other choice. What were you supposed to do? Wait around until he grew up?"

The date the other night went eh. I wasn't really that into him. Plus his pictures had to be like 5 years old. He looked like 35. I'm 23, I don't want to go out with someone that old. Plus I don't know if I was really into the whole date. Whatever. It was good to just get out. I have some dates lined up for when I get back from vacation, so I guess we'll see where those go. I've been talking to this one guy on the phone for the last couple of nights and he seems nice enough. But you really don't know someone until you meet them and spend some time with them so I guess we'll see.

I'm feeling sick right now, so maybe that's why I feel so blue. But I guess we'll see how everything ends up going.