For those of you who have been reading my posts, my currect boyfriend and I are still dating. I guess we are actually semi-serious. I don't know. lol

For the longest time, I actually kept myself so closed up in this relationship, because I have been so afraid of getting hurt. Like I think that I posted before about this, but it was just like I felt that I've been screwed over time and time again - that something was going to be bound to happen in this relationship, so I shouldn't bother to get close. Meanwhile, my boyfriend, pretty much has fallen head over heels in love with me. So this whole situation is like the reverse of what I've experienced in the past. But whatever, I'm semi gotten over my hang ups, I guess.

Although, I've seriously been looking into my insurance plan about seeing a therapist. Just to talk about things, because I guess I have been kind of messed up emotionally. But, I'm slowly healing and getting better and my boyfriend's patience and understanding has actually helped me a lot.

But, onto why I actually started this post. As always, it seems as if my posts always take on a life of their own. My boyfriend and I have booked a trip together for April. We had to book it so far in advanced, because I'm a teacher and I can pretty much only go away on "high season" so if we waited any longer, either 1) the prices would be astronomical or 2) there would be no flights/hotels left. So yay! We had to book it now!

Anyways, I did get the cancel for anything insurance - you know just in case. But it still makes me nervous because this is a huge step to be taking. Or at least in my mind it is, lol. But by then we'd be together for over a year, so I guess it would be only natural to go away together. But still, it's a step for me. It really is. I'm letting my guard down and stuff. Something that I'm normally not used to doing. Or not used to doing without my heart getting smashed into pieces, haha.

Wish me luck!!!