so as my first blog i will talk about my love for a man who never loved me. it has taken me until 2 weeks ago. but that is jumping ahead. so let's start at the beginning..

i met him my senior year of high school a month before graduation. he worked at this cute little vintage place i love to shop at, funny thing is i would never have noticed him. he followed me around the store and i was oblivious, he ran over to check me out at the register. we flirted and we exchanged numbers, went on a date 2 days later. a disaster of a date.   i got out of my car and immediately wanted to get back in and drive away. this long haired, grungy looking boy  was sitting at a table outside of the place we were meeting and all i could think was "please don't let that be him!!" and it was.   well so we chatted and he gave me a hand massage which was really awkward and then we went walking and i was just about to say "it was nice meeting you and have a good life" pretty much. but i got a phone call from my dad and he told me not to kiss him on the first date, i get off the phone laughing and the guy i'm with asks what that was all about i told him and he kissed me. it was horrible,many reasons why i'm sure, wasn;t expecting it and well i never really dated. somehow we ended up going and sitting by a river and kissing and cuddling and talking and that convinced me not only was he going to be my date for prom but i wanted him in my life. from someone who i almost said goodbye to because he was SO NOT my type, he became the love of my life.

we lasted i would say a week and a half before we broke up. lol. that break up was for 3 hrs i think. even now i'm cracking up laughing at his stupidity. we had a very weird relationship. we broke up atleast 6 times. guess this last one stuck...the whole problem was my going off to college and looking back he wasn't over his ex. who refers to their ex as wonderwoman, even after you've "moved on"? she was a huge problem in our relationhip because she would keep holding on to him and playing with him and he always cared more about her than me, our relationship was horrible actually, we never really saw eye to eye, he was a huge pot head and his theories on life made me want to hit him. our relationship was based purely on sex, and in the end that what it broke down to friends with benefits.

onto two weeks ago. i met this very smooth talking, hotter than any guy i have ever met, he is just WOW. so we were flirting and we got onto the topic of relationships and love. he gaffawed at love being part of it for men, he said "you can get any woman into bed just by saying i love you" and it is kind of true. my ex and i didn't sleep together until he "loved me" it's like love is the key to this invisible chastity belt.