The other night F invited me out with him and his friends. I drove because I didn't really want to drink and it was his friends, so I wouldn't have really drank that much anyway. I'm not going to go into details but F made a pretty big ass out of himself with how completely trashed he got. Like really bad - he ended up throwing up and passing out in my car.

I'm not mad at the situation, because there have been times where I have gotten really drunk and made a fool out of myself. But, granted, that would not have happened in front of someone who I had feelings for. But I'm not happy with the whole situation either. And during the whole fiasco his friends apologized to me for it and were telling F that he was an idiot because they wouldn't blame me for never talking to him again.

Now this whole situation, just makes me want to bring up the fact that I want to make this whole relationship "official" even more. I want him to take "single" off of his facebook status, I want to be introduced as his girlfriend, and I want to know what he wants out of this whole thing. I know that he likes me, because of things that he said and he sent me an apology message really early this morning - so I'm guessing he woke up and realized what an asshole he was last night. But I just want it to be made clear and I want to know and I want to call him my boyfriend. At this point, I don't even care if I'm being petty about the whole thing - I just want it to be crystal clear. And if he doesn't want a real potentially long-term relationship, then I don't know if I can do it anymore.