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25.02.2010 (712 Days Ago)
Why is it that somedays I feel like I suck at everything? Things like...
1) Suddenly wanting to spend a whole bunch of time with Kevin. Maybe that's normal after a couple gets back together after a break-up? This week I feel like he's been indifferent to us hanging out. He enjoys my company when I'm around but is completely fine without me. Before the break-up he would send me a text almost everyday asking if I'd like to come over for awhile...he's only done that once out of the past five days now. I feel like I need a life...or more friends or something. I wish I was stronger and less dependant on him when it came to finding ways to occupy my time. I feel sad to admit that most things I do seem a little brighter and happier when he's around. There's a part of me that is screaming inside for him to get ahold of me, tell me he misses me and wants to come over to see me. Does he not love me enough? Am I not fun enough? What about me makes him NOT want to do this?
2) School. I am falling miserably behind in school. This whole 18 credits thing isn't fun.
3) Work. I feel like the managers I work with think I'm lazy. I'm an anxiety-ridden full time college student taking 6 classes and working 20 hours a week. Somedays, my shitty part time job gets the least amount of my energy...do you want to know why? Because I hate it. I've hated it for the past three and a half years.
4) My friendship with my roommate. I asked her nicely to clean up after herself when she uses my coffee maker. She kindly complied and yet I'm still finding old coffee grounds and water being left in the container for days at a time. I told her again to please have respect for my belongings and clean them if she's going to use them. I'm not asking her to scrub it down everytime she makes coffee...just throw out the old filter and grounds and rinse out the inside basin. It takes less then five minutes. She started getting cocky with me...rolling her eyes and saying she "doesn't have time in the morning." Well, I dont have time to listen to your excuses...I'm going to move the coffee maker out of the kitchen and into my bedroom if it keeps happening. That coffee maker was a gift and I want to keep it clean and well-maintained...not mold and bacteria ridden from never being properly cleaned and old grounds sitting in for days at a time.
Whew. It feels good to vent.
Anonymous wrote 711 Days Ago (neutral) 0I don't mean to say that I know exactly what you are going through but I found myself in a similar situation a few months ago. My boyfriend broke up with me and then we decided to try to make things work but he was much less attentive and I felt like I was always the one calling him to hang out. It sucks feeling like you're the only one putting effort into it. I mean really, is trying to make it work REALLY making you happy? It didn't end up working out with me and my ex but I hope that your guy turns around and starts treating you the way you deserve to be treated.0 points
Anonymous wrote 712 Days Ago (neutral) 0hi. i think it is sad that your boyfriend does not want to spend much time with you or make it a point to be interested in your life. my last boyfriend was always there for me and cared about my life. if you had ever had that you would know how wrong your boyfriend sounds. my ex and i did not work out but it was not for lack of communication. :)
i went to school full time and worked full time. i totally understand how you feel. but seriously i hope that school is almost over and you can get a job that you actually like.
as for the roommate that never stops until you find a place of your own. in this economy it may be many many years from now! but know that you're not alone in that boat.
i hope that you really think hard about this guy you are dating. he doesnt sound warm or nurturing at all. it would drive me crazy too.0 points
