I brought up the conversation with F today about "what we are." And, probably by my title - and the tags, you can see that it didn't go as well as planned.

I don't even know what to think about this whole thing right now. I kind of felt that he was being a little different lately. Like he went away and didn't say anything to me while he was away. Then when he came back, he wasn't being his normal self - or that's the way that I felt. I thought that maybe I was reading too much into it, but deep down that's how I felt. So I brought up the issue and I was surprised at how calm and assertive I was being - because normally it's not me.

Basically, what I said was that I wanted to know if he still liked me because I felt like he was being distant, and that he didn't really care if I saw him or not. To which he denied - and claimed that he still liked me. So then I asked him, "What are we?" And he tried to play stupid - but I was basically like you know what I mean by that question. To which he responded, "I don't know." Then I was basically like, "We've been seeing each other for 3 months now. You should know if you want to be with me or if you don't want to be with me." Then he was like, "Can't we just be something in between?" And I was like, "Well how long are we going to be in between for? We've been doing this for 3 months. I'm not going to be in between forever." And he just didn't have an answer for me.

Which was definitely not what I wanted to hear. So I was basically like, "Well, I feel that by now you should know. I'm going to leave now, if you want to talk to me you can call or text me tomorrow" And then I got up and I left. He gave me some "Are you really leaving?" And I was basically like, yea, I'm not going to sit here and have this whole thing be awkward, I'm going. And then I walked out of his house and left.

When I got to the corner of his block - he sent me a text message saying that he just really didn't know what he wants and that he really does like me and not to think that he doesn't.

I'm just really hurt and upset by this whole thing. I don't know what to think anymore. I just think that his response was ridiculous and it hurts to hear. WTF does in between mean? I'm just really angry right now. I didn't respond to his message. Maybe I'll respond tomorrow.