Here's an update on how things have been going. W has been here a lot. Things have been pretty good, and some things have been GREAT! We've talked about a lot, and he has explained a lot of things to me. It seemed like he was putting in a lot of effort.......... until last night. He came here when he got off work. I was in the shower and he came in the bathroom and said hi to me. I got out of the shower and talked to him and then he told me he was going to play golf. That was cool with me, because I got so used to being by myself, I really don't need him around 24/7. That was at about 3:30. After he left, I cleaned up and played games on Facebook until little man woke up and then little man and I went to my moms. That was 5:30. At 8 little man and I went home. At 9:30 I put little man to bed. W was still not here. I wasn't mad, I didn't text him to ask why he wasn't here. I just sat around knowing that he was drunk and he would either text me to ask me to come get him, or he would text me and tell me he was staying somewhere else. Sure enough at 10:30 he text me. He asked what my sister was doing. I immedieatly called her and asked her if she would come over and stay here while I went and picked W up. (My parent's and sister live like a minute down the road.) So she came over and I text him and asked where he was and he said the golf course (Surprise, surprise.)

So I get there a few minutes after 11 and he comes outside and asks me to come meet his friends. (aka drinking buddies) Before we go in, he asks me if I am mad at him, and I tell him that I am not mad, I'm just a little disappointed in him. His face falls, and he tells me that he is sorry. So we go in and he introduces me to everyone. One girl there takes me into the bathroom with her and tells me that she is glad W and I are back together because he is so much happier now. She also tells me that nothing goes on at the golf course except for a whole lot of drinking, and that I shouldn't be jealous. I said I wasn't jealous at all and that I trust W. She talks to me about some random stuff and then we leave the bathroom. W picks me up and spins around and then his friends do the same. Then they notice the hickey on my neck. W explains that he put that on my neck to show everyone that I am his girl. He tells them that he thought I was with someone else and he was jealous. (Once again, I rarely got out of the house so how could I see someone else?!) Finally a little before 12am, I get him out to the car so I can take him home. Before we get halfway to my house, he starts puking and I have to pull over. I get him in the house, and he starts puking again! He finally goes to sleep and around 2am he is up again puking. At 6am I wake him and tell him to get ready for work. My bffs husband lives down the road and he offered to take W to work so I wouldn't have to wake little man up. He jumps out of the bed and stumbles around and finally gets dressed and then he is off to work.

He text me on his lunch break and thanked me again for coming to pick him up. *sigh* I just don't know if he is ever going to stop with the excessive drinking. Its one thing to drink on the weekends, but its STUPID to get drunk when you have to get up at 6am and work for 8 to 10 hours in 97degree weather!!!!

I am proud of myself though. I didn't get mad or bitchy with him at all. Usually I would have thrown a bitch fit, so I know I'm doing good at controlling my anger.

It just bothers me that he is NOT supposed to drink. It is a part of his probation. The really messed up part is that we live in a dry county (no liquor and no bars) but at the golf course they can serve liquor and beer to people that aren't supposed to be around it. Not to mention the fact that W told me that he was talking to a cop up there and the cop asked him if he was violating his probation and W said yes, and the cop said well don't drive and I don't see you drinking. I mean really...

Oh well... I will give it some more time, and see what happens. If this keeps happening then he WILL be kicked to the curb, no ifs ands or buts!