I have decided that this new year will be the time to release the pain from my divorce, the hope for the two of us (which I had even though it was obvious that we would no longer work), and him from my heart.  He will always have a place there, just not as large as it has been. I cannot continue to feel the hurt and loss-I will never recover if I don't make my stand now. I have to do this, not only for me, but to be a better parent for our child.  16 years (as of separation in 2008) is a long time, but I have to quit dwelling on this loss and see my way out. They say one door closes so another will open, but those hallways in between sure can be a bitch, but I see the new door now so I plan to open it. I have not yet met someone new nor have I really looked to do so. I have taken nearly 2 years to myslef to try to make sense of it all and find myself again.  I feel I have finally done so and feel alot stronger than I have since it all started. I welcome these new feelings and will do what I can to continue this new path.