So today is a semi-special day for me. It's the anniversary of losing my virginity. 

I'm not a person who writes it in a diary or anything - I just remember it, because it happened on Pearl Harbor Day (5 years ago!) - my cousin sent me a text today that said "I heard on the radio that it was Pearl Harbor Day - Happy Anniversary!" haha

So it brings me back to that day. I was dating my first "real" boyfriend (I had one before that but we were more like friends). We hadn't been dating that long, but I was a freshman in college and I was at that stage where I wanted to have sex because I wanted to see what it was like and just experience it. Right before we actually did it - I freaked out and told him that I didn't want to do it - but he did it anyway because he said that "We were going to do it sometime and I might as well just get over it" - pretty much in those words. I felt so violated and gross after. The condom ended up breaking and we went to go to Planned Parenthood to get some Plan B because I wasn't on the pill yet. But we ended up getting stuck in traffic on the freeway because they were doing some flag ceremony for Pearl Harbor Day.

So that's how I remember the day. It's not really the best experience ever - and like I said in a previous post, I think that I tied love and making a guy happy to sex because of that relationship. I've finally grown past that and learned a lot from that experience. But, naturally, I was kind of screwed up from it for a while.

But I'm really happy now and that's the main thing. If anyone else wants to share their stories - feel free to write them in the comments!